Wanted to drop in and give a little more than 2200 characters about this. So here we are.
But I've had this written on a post-it note next to my desk for years. It reminds me that i really can't do it all. And I'm not supposed to. 

As an entrepreneur, as a CEO, we often carry the weight of the world on our shoulders.

I think we have glorified this whole hustle culture, and if you know me, you know that im all for showing up. 

I set high goals for myself, and then I do my best to sit back and just listen. Because whatever the big scary goal is.. 1 i didn't give it to myself and therefore 2, i cant accomplish it myself. 

My job is the showing up piece. It's doing what i feel called to do when i feel called to do it. It's taking the divinely inspired action every day - sometimes that divinely inspired action is rest, btw... But that's a topic for another day. 

But once I've done that, once I've taken inventory of what I'm called to do and then I do it... God kind of gets to take care of the rest.

The issue is, we have a hard time doing that.

If you're a high achiever you know what I mean.
You're used to doing it all.
You're used to being the strong one.
You're used to not needing help.

You built an entire identity around it and then created so many walls around yourself.. Such a fortress... That anytime you're put in a position where you actually need to lean in this concept of God filling in the gap, it feels like unwanted subjugation. Basically, we left God out in favor of our own power and might and get bent out of shape when God actually wants to show up for us.

How do I know? Cuz I've had many a come Jesus moments about control issues i never thought I owned. 

Seriously, I don't feel like people who know me we would say I'm a control freak. I have high standards. I am clear on what i want. But i don't think i generally try to control the outcome. 

But I have learned that we all are in some capacity: Control freaks. We all feel like i need to do it, I have to do it, I should be doing it, I   I   I!

The issue there is its doesn't leave much room for God to do what God does. 
Lots of room for you tho. It's an ego boost to know you did it all. And when it doesn't go as planned it also gives you a reason to blame and judge yourself. 

The truth is, statistically, it shouldn't make sense for me to be where I am - single parent home of an immigrant mom, black, woman... On paper, we aren't really batting 500 here.

But God's grace filling in the gaps supersedes all of that. It's the stuff that shows up when it seems like everything I am doing is wrong and yet it works out anyway.

God's grace is the element that takes it to the next level even when the work I put in (or didn't put in for that matter) is insufficient.

God's grace is filling in the gaps is directional when you need it to be. Its visionary, ita inspiration, its motivation, its creativity, it's putting the right people in your path when you need it, it's you being in the right place at the right time unexpectedly, it is the gut feelings of intuition and instinct, its the extra boost of energy you need yo get you through it, its the rest when you need that, its God knowing what you need before you do because he knows where he is calling you to go, and he is always seeing a 40,000-foot view of it.

Your ability to trust that and lean into that makes showing up so much better!

Listen to the rest of the podcast for a quick journaling assignment that will help!

Sending you all so much love today.

Talk soon.