Checking in on my STRONG friends.
How are you doing?
Sounds like a loaded question. But with all that's going on right now, sometimes its the right one.
As COVID wasn't enough 😫
Watching videos of #AhmaudAsbury and #GeorgeFloyd, hearing about #BreonnaTaylor, and FEELING all that comes with it. It is a lot in a very short amount of time. Its compounded grief and anger and emotions that I cant even begin to express. I know many of you feel the same.
Checking in on you because, if youre reading this, you're probably a leader in some capacity. And people look to you and lean on you to be a voice of reason, a light in the dark, a beacon. And thats heavy weight to carry.
Personally, I find myself teetering between what seems to be a slight depression (because I have no other words to categorize it at the moment) and outright rage.
I'm thankful for a community that allows me to do that. I've spent the last week or so having many conversations. I have had many crying sessions by myself and those around me.
I have tried several times to film videos of my own thoughts. I've tried to record podcasts to get it out there but I find that I either start crying to the point where my words are incoherent or my words become destructive. Neither of which is helpful.
I have shared a number of resources, posts, and ideals on IG stories. From those whom I felt have been able to articulate what I'm feeling in a more coherent way. I'm in awe of those who have been able to be so eloquent in this season. Lemme tell you something...when it comes to this particular subject matter, that is NOT my gift 🤣
I've had countless private conversations. But... I understand that my public platform carries weight. And so, I will ABSOLUTELY be saying something.
And just so we are clear - #blacklivesmatter
So whatever form it takes...thats the message.
So as I gather myself and my thoughts, I wanted to reach out to you and let you know that I grieve, I mourn, I hurt, I cry. this is very real for me as a black woman, as an American, and as a human being! But I am also letting my voice be heard, as should YOU!
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